"Love Yourself, Starting with the Body": A Healing Goddess Sensory Feast to Reclaim Inner Strength
In October, I had my first session with Master Kumar, a Goddess Sensory Ecstasy Feast. As soon as I entered the healing room and consulted with the master, I knew this was the course I needed. I completely agreed with the master's words: the body must accumulate enough nourishment to have the energy for deeper healing.
After going through an emotional heartbreak, I was left with a deep sense of unworthiness, feeling undeserving of better things and people in life. I constantly felt I had to chase perfection to be seen and liked, clinging to a self-deprecating mindset in relationships, always trying to please others and holding back what I truly wanted to say. Over a month, I realized I had lost my voice, as if I'd been punched in the abdomen—my tone was low and weak.
During the first phase of that day, back massage, I could feel the master's attention to every detail. The tantric massage technique was completely different from the usual rehabilitative massages for sore muscles—it felt like my body was being soothed, understood, and slowly awakening to desire.
The second phase was a leap—I had to face it fully bare🫣, but the comforting touch of the first phase gave me a sense of security, allowing me to entrust my body to the master. Warm, custom-blended essential oils were poured over me, feeling incredibly pleasant, especially as they nourished areas in need of special care. For the first time in my life, I felt intensely cared for; gentleness and intensity coexisted, and I was breathless, my voice reaching a high pitch. Silently, I anticipated the arrival of the third phase.
In the third phase, I was still holding back; my body's sensitivity was intense, yet I didn't interact with the master as I felt a bit resistant. I realized I needed to reflect on the reasons behind this resistance and wanted to understand myself even more. I especially liked the side embrace gesture, which felt unexpectedly comforting. I'm grateful to the master for such a beautiful, ultimate sensory experience.
The day after the session, my lower abdomen was sore. By the second evening, my abdomen felt swollen and heavy, almost hollow inside, so much that I had to support it while walking due to the pain. It reminded me of the memory of my first terminated pregnancy. The soreness throughout my body may have been due to the tension and restraint from that day, holding back from fully engaging with the master.
On the third morning, I woke up, and miraculously, the pain and swelling in my stomach were gone. I could speak again, and my voice returned to its former lightness because… I finally voiced the words I'd been holding back. I believe this was a sign of blockage in my throat chakra. This session also taught me what internal climax and the quality of beautiful intimacy require. I want to be a woman who can love herself first before loving others, to love myself even more. I'm looking forward to the next session.
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